Accurate Reading Was Quite Accurate

So, it’s been quite a while since I’ve read for myself. I got into the habit of doing them fairly regularly for myself and for ye old shit head, the mule. But then of course, shit happens, and he got cut lose and sheet/times are changing.

Anyway, enough of that nonsense. I decided that I’d give myself a reading, not sure what prompted it, but as I sat down and chilled out and just started shuffling my cards, with Pandora on, me just chilling and shufflin and the music playing. What I didnt’ realize was that while I was going to read one oracle, I ended up getting messages from two of them simultaneously.


Seriously, it was actually pretty cool.

When I felt the urge to stop shuffling, I took note of what song was playing.

Bonnie Tyler- Total Eclipse of the Heart. Ok…

Perhaps I should also mention that while I do like the song, it’s a favorite of his mulishness. Message? You decide.

I lay out my cards…..

Turn over the first one…..

And I see Frog, Purification. Ok… Interesting.

Now the song has ended, I’m just about to turn over another card, and Queen, Killer Queen comes on…. Ok, yeah now I’m chuckling a little bit, because, well why the hell not?

Eagle (R), Porcupine, Snake (R), Cougar (R), Dragon Fly (R) and Humming Bird (R).

So, I’m looking over my cards, deciding what’s going on. Killer Queen ends, and a new song begins. This time, for my eargasmic pleasure, Alice in Chains, Down in a Hole!

OK Oracle! You win! and you’re totally right. It’s been a month, and now that the transition is over and taken place, it’s time to start pulling myself out of that hole.

I suppose that I’ll go ahead and include the rest of the reading of the Animals real quick at this point as well.

Eagle pretty much is saying hey you, you’re having some trust issues and they’re affecting your spirit, your ability to soar. Point taken. Porcupine, quite blaming yourself you nut fuck, it’s not your fault and you did what you had to do. Snake, aside from fucking making me uncomfortable, is telling me that I have some healing and rejuvenation that needs to take place.

Cougar wants me to regain my confidence. We’ll see if I can manage to do that. Oh! Shiny boy person on oracle right now! (Ummm… maybe it’s pointing out something else too? Lmao)

Dragonfly, I should mention that I’ve seen quite a few of these in the front yard recently, I should have known that they were conveying a message, they popped up again for me here, they want me to remember who I am, see past the self imposed illusion that I’ve built around myself.

And last but not least, Hummingbird…. I need to find joy again.

Ok…. Let me go find some eye candy to look at, I’m sure that will help immensely.


oh, I was going to post a quick update about the changes that have happened, and then I realized that I’m going to have to change up the categories on this blog, because, yeah.

Dropped the dead weight. I think maybe I started the process with the message and then completed it last night when I went ahead and killed his fb account.

Long story short, it was connected to one of my email addy’s. I got tired of getting an assload of messages/notifications from his fb. He hadn’t logged on to change up any of the info, or put in a new email, so, I killed it.

~Shrugs~ shit happens.

Oh yeah, and he was a manipulative, lying, cheating asshat. Nuff said.


Seems that there is a lot of dust that’s piled up, and so, I’m making my rounds and unlocking blogs and dusting things off, because I’m going to be using them again, pretty soon. I just need to be inspired, perhaps even a little enraged… we’ll see how it goes!

The oracle is going right now, Black Magic Woman, it goes with the frame of mind and the ideas that have been bouncing around today. I was thinking that PUTA might need to have a little of a direction change, but maybe not. I mean there will always be asshats to blog about. I do want to do a little more on the self discovery bit. So, I’m going to try to keep that over here, and figure out if there will be any bits that will be open for public consumption.

Now that I’ve scattered the dust onto the floor, I think there are things that I need to nail down and flesh out, I’ll be back here soon.

Dogs of War

“The Dogs Of War”

Dogs of war and men of hate
With no cause, we don’t discriminate
Discovery is to be disowned
Our currency is flesh and bone
Hell opened up and put on sale
Gather ’round and haggle
For hard cash, we will lie and deceive
Even our masters don’t know the web we weave
One world, it’s a battleground
One world, and we will smash it down
One world … One world
Invisible transfers, long distance calls,
Hollow laughter in marble halls
Steps have been taken, a silent uproar
Has unleashed the dogs of war
You can’t stop what has begun
Signed, sealed, they deliver oblivion
We all have a dark side, to say the least
And dealing in death is the nature of the beast
One world, it’s a battleground
One world, and we will smash it down
One world … One world
The dogs of war won’t negotiate
The dogs of war don’t capitulate,
They will take and you will give,
And you must die so that they may live
You can knock at any door,
But wherever you go, you know they’ve been there before
Well winners can lose and things can get strained
But whatever you change, you know the dogs remain.
One world, it’s a battleground
One world, and we will smash it down
One world … One world

After the last blog, this is what the Oracle chose to give me. Universe, I’m listening.

NaNoWriMo wtf!

NaNoWriMo wtf did I get myself into?


So, I’m going to challenge myself to do NaNoWriMo this month, today’s the first day, and I’m sitting here filled with dread. I have no title, a thin plot idea, and no character names.

I also have an overload of anxiety at the moment. I do believe it’s very possible that my head will explode before I ever really get anything of substance written down.

I’m also filled with the need to call the whole process, ‘NoNo No No’

Fasten your seatbelts, it’s time to watch the disintegration of lala.

Also, I’m going to send a heat seaking missile after this fly in the living room.